Had a surgery some three weeks ago (large intestine), followed by a really nasty post-surgical infections: had to take two antibiotics extra-strength three times a day for two weeks.  Curiously, the infection spread not only around the stitches (which would be rather natural), but also... under my big toe nail.  The stitches are fine now, but the toe nail is still weeping, so that means the infection is still there.  Was already told that would have to have the nail removed and all the possibly-infected tissue under the nail (plus a bit extra for the margin of safety) remove, so not impossible if it would go down as far as the bone (not my words!).  Lovely future awaits me...

Plus,was already scheduled for full gastroscopy and colonoscopy, under general anaesthetic.  Would love to have it done (well, not 'love' really, but to maybe finally see what is causing my insides to get blocked, and where, and what can be done with it - because as it is it ain't funny no more!).  Except, they had some problems waking me up after the last general hammer in the head, which came only some 4 weeks after the previous one.  The last time, instead of my usual three hours kip approx., I woke up after over seven hours, and with some significant difficulties.  At the moment I'm sooo weakend by the antibiotic, that I don't think I would have much chance to wake up at all, to look at it pragmatically.  Have to try to get stronger first, if I manage...

At the moment, not only the pains and aches (despite the over-thirty tablets which my daily diet consists of) are my day- and nightmare, but I started having my "lights out" attacks again: just at some moment, split of a second more like it, my brain stops following the reality and starts working on its own, as if ignoring me.  I cant keep the eyes open, keep any sort of conversation going, and when I come out of it - could be twenty minutes, maybe couple of houres - I'm so exhausted, I feel like following asleep.and after I realy wake up with a perfect gap in my memory...

Oh, fun!!!